Distance.

This is about me. It's me. Something wrong with me. Not you, or you or even you my dear. It's not your fault. It's my fault. I know my attitude is too much. I didn't mean it. If i say that i love you, can you just believe in me? Could you trust me with all your heart? Do you still love me? And you always said that you wont leave me. Still remember? Hmm, but it's not the main problem now. As you know, my house and your house is not at the same row. Honestly, our distance is killing me. I know we are not always meet. And sometimes, when we are already made a planned to meet, it's always canceled. :'( Hmm, sorry my dear. You know what i am scared of? THE SCARIEST THING ABOUT DISTANCE IS THAT YOU ARE NOT SURE IF THE PERSON WOULD EITHER MISS YOU OR FORGET YOU. :'(( But i'm trying to stay strong, to stay with you. Because I DO LOVE YOU, no matter what. You do very well at making me happy, smile. Hmm, so now you know what is my problem right? The problem is, i get annoyed with everything.  And you want to know when i'm most annoyed? When I remember I can’t see my boyfriend. Don’t think I’m dependent on him. In fact, I’m very independent for the fact that I don’t need him around all the time. But when I want him to be here, that’s when I get annoyed. When I see couples that can see each other whenever they want to, it angers me because I know that is not how my relationship is. I hate walking down the hallways in school seeing people holding hands/kissing/being with each other/etc. Distance is also a killer. And when I actually set time aside so I can see my boyfriend, I never know if it is going to happen. That bugs me, not knowing if I will see him.So those that have their boyfriends close, listen up: Take advantage of what you have, there are some girls that are jealous of you being able to be around each other as much as you two want. Hmm, dear at this very moment, all i want is to be beside you. :'( Sorry for everything, sorry for what i've done. I didn't mean it. You know what i meant right? :') hmm, I LOVE YOU!